I won't be telling you today all the factors that went into this decision on my part, but lets just say that I grew up with the certainty I did not want to get married. Sure as I got older and my friends talked about who they liked and wanted to date, I can't say I wasn't attracted to that whole idea. Sure I wanted someone to like me. Sure I wanted a boyfriend to dote on me and take me places etc. etc. But to actually marry? Whew, that was another thing altogether. And I was adamant that no male would take advantage of me in any way.
But as I entered into adulthood and especially once I started Graduate School, I realized living alone could be, well... lonely. I did want to belong with someone. And I wanted someone to belong with me. But then my resolve would come up and I would say to myself that I did not need THAT to be happy. But my prayers started including the idea that if God had someone in mind that He knew would be the perfect match than He would have to throw that person in my path because I wasn't going out looking.
And since you have already seen the picture of my family you know that family includes a husband. I can honestly say that God has a wonderful way of bringing about His perfect plans. Did I understand or hop on board to His plans easily or immediately? NO. Of course, I had my ideas and they didn't line up with the plan God started to unveil to me. You want me to belong with him, God? But, but I don't know him and he just doesn't look like the perfect one. But God gently led down that path anyway.
After 18 years of marriage I can look back and say with 100% assurance that God's plan is always best. My husband and I often tell each other that we are SO glad God knew we belonged together! I shudder to think of living my life without this man with me. No, I didn't need to be married to do God's will. No, I didn't need to be married to be happy. But God knew that if I was with this man that He could use him to bless me immeasurably and abundantly above anything I could have thought possible. He knew the healing my heart needed. He knew that with that healing I would become even more useful in His service. And he knew the healing that my husband needed and that he could use me to do that healing.
We belong together! Thank you God!!!
December 18, 2012 Our 18th Wedding Anniversary
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